On
December 25, 2011 my father passed away from cancer. After many years of suffering he finally let go and moved on to a
better place. I consider myself
fortunate to have made peace with him several months earlier—we didn’t see
eye-to-eye on a lot of things. Though
we had our issues, he was a simple man that only wanted a ham sandwich, cable
television and a comfortable chair. The
one thing that he did give me was my appreciation of music. Most of the time the radio was my baby
sitter while he was off doing what he was doing. When differences divided us, music united us. I can’t thank him enough for giving me the
ability to be at odds with someone and yet, bond over a song. I dedicate this collection of “Jackie” songs
to my father and hope that he is bonding with other spirits and listening to
some great music.
There
are a lot of songs that had Jackie in the title. Some didn’t quite make the list here, but I put them in a
playlist on Youtube, which you can get to by clicking here.
1.
Sinead O'Connor-"Jackie"
I
like the edginess of this song. It has
an intensity of dedication and passion for a sailor named Jackie. It reminds me of how lucky my father was in
his life in his ability to survive a disaster and come out of the experience
without a scratch.
2.
Van Morrison-“Jackie Wilson Said”
Though
I prefer the Dexy’s Midnight Runners version of this song, I figured
that my dad would appreciate this one more.
It has a nice swinging rhythm and kind of makes you want to just get up
and dance. When my father was in his
late forties, he took up ballroom dancing and spent many years sharing his
moves out on the dance floor.
3.
John Mellencamp–“Jackie Brown”
My
father was absent from my life a majority of the time, which created a lot of
tension between us. I don’t begrudge
his decisions, but sometimes when I listen to this song, I can relate to a lot
of the difficulties he saw around him.
This song is very special to me, because I can really relate to it, and
I suspect that he could as well.
4.
Ozark Mountain Daredevils-“Jackie Blue”
When
I was growing up, I thought that I was named after this song, but as luck would
have it, I was named after my father.
In the years since, I’ve received a lot of mail to Ms. Jackie Jr., (you
would think that Jr. would clarify things) which confused the hell out of
me. In this song, I thought that a
woman sang it, but as it turns out the male drummer Larry Lee, did the
vocal track. I think we all live in
patterns and when something that we think is one way, may actually be something
else. Jackie isn’t just a female’s
name, there’s Jackie Chan, Jackie Gleason, and Jackie Mason.
5.
Tori Amos-“Jackie’s Strength”
I
was in the audience at this show, and have been a fan of Tori for years, but I
was not familiar with this song. I’m
not sure if it applies to my father, considering it alludes to a bride on her
wedding day as well as Jackie O'nassis.
Though you wouldn’t know it from his appearance, my father was a very
strong man, well strong willed.
6.
The New Pornographers-“Jackie”
This song is not to be confused with, “Jackie,
Dressed up in Cobras,” which is on their Twin Cinema album
(2005). This song is from their debut Mass
Republic (2000) record. I love the
lyric in the song that says, “Jackie you yourself said it best when you said:”
It appears several times in the song, but I can’t help but laugh when thinking
about how assured my father was when he was telling a story, even when we all
knew it wasn’t true. I guess you have
to accept people as they are and not who you want them to
be.
7.
Ramones–“The Return of Jackie and Judy”
I’ve
always been a punk rocker, and I like this song.
Bonus
Song: Fastball–“The
Way”
This
song really typifies the attitude that my father had towards life. He really didn’t know where he was going,
and most of the time he made it up along the way, but the road was always
calling him. I’d like to think that
I’ve inherited his good luck in some of the chances I’ve taken in life. God knows I didn’t plan for some of the
stuff that happened along the way, but what I learned from my father was to get
back up, brush yourself off, and continue to do whatever you want. I doubt that he had many regrets and I hope
that is my legacy as well.
1 comment:
Beautiful tribute, Jackie.
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